The Serious Ones
This is more of a personal thing. The sort of thing that I usually I wouldn’t share on my usual social network sites, but it needs to be said.
Personally I suffer from depression. I have never been diagnosed, simply because I have never had the courage to go to the doctors and say. But I have always suffered from it. Sometime’s, well allot of time, I can’t sleep, because I’m awake most the night in tears, simply because I don’t know what to do. Not because I’m poor, or had a bad upbringing, in fact I have a very good upbringing, but simply because I do not know what to do with my life. But I never admitted it because I was, and am, afraid what people will think. Well that’s a lie, I know what I want to do, I want to move to America, work for a brewery, and be in charge of distribution, this is what I know, this is what I want, but these are just dreams.
I have a very, none unique method of dealing with depression, and that is plenty of drink and allot of Vulcan emotion suppression.
But this all eventually builds up, and you need some sort of out let, which for me is my Blog. This Blog is an absolute outlet for all my emotions which is why, some post will be happy, others will be sad, and other will be just down right strange.
Either way, everybody needs some sort of outlet for their day to day routine. Thankfully Blogging does the job for now, for me. But eventually, I, we, will all need help of some sort and you should never be afraid of asking for it.
Luckily, I have recently found somebody I can talk to, as myself, and that is a fantastic feeling, and I hope this carries on and I can be happy with being myself.
But for now, life goes on, happy or sad, it’s my life and I need to deal with it, although it’s not the life I want.
That’s it for now.
Art by jxdx
Recently discovered a new Vlogger on YouTube called boogie2988. And watched a couple of his latest video’s Draw My Life & Please Hold On. (You really need to watch them) And what he said really touched me and made me think how much of our life we take for granted.
He talks allot about not having the greatest upbringing, and talks allot about wanting to kill himself in the past.
Allot of us feel down from time to time, feel like nobody understands us, and just want to lock ourself’s away. Sure allot of people have had a bad upbringing and some of us have had terrible losses and debilitating deceases, but everyone reading this is still here in the present, in the now, and that is what everyone of us needs to keep in their thoughts.
I hope that everyone understand that some people just need a helping hand sometimes, that pat on the back, a hello, or even just a nod from afar, just something to help these people who feel like this.
Everyone deserves a chance, but unfortunately, not everyone gets one.
I hope everyone took the time to read this post and not just cast it aside.
Tha’ts all For nowPlease like and comment & share. I would like to do a more in depth post about this topic in a few weeks time.